You guys! Today I was able to exercise alone. B went with his Grammy and Papa to run errands while I volunteered in J's class at school. I made it home before B, and J rode the bus home, so I had about 40 minutes to myself. I decided to use the last of the good weather, and my new cool-weather fleeced-lined pants and long sleeve workout clothes from TJ Maxx, to go on a run in my neighborhood.
The hills by my house are tough to actually run so I was able to get a good workout, even though it took me 30 min. to run 2 miles. The run was so enjoyable because I listened to an album I forgot I had. Not sure how I found out about them or if I even paid for it - may have been a Noise Trade find - but it was the best running music!
The words are so encouraging and the music was just the right beat. Now I'm not normally a rap/hip hop fan but having amazing theology in music is always a plus for me. The album is by Beautiful Eulogy called Instruments of Mercy. Seriously, if you need to be reminded of God's mercy in your life and/or get pumped up on a run, this is the album for you! Go find it and I hope it will encourage you to love God more!
Worship and Suffering
This month I've had a few conversations about God's will, "His plan for our lives", our spiritual gifts, and what we should do with the talents and gifts we've been given. I've also read 3 or 4 books this year - and many blog posts/articles - that have spurred me on "to love and good deeds." (Heb. 10:24)
Throughout that process, I've come to understand more clearly the part I have to play in God's story. Especially here, in this valley, where I live. I am more committed to Christ and Him magnified.
Throughout that process, I've come to understand more clearly the part I have to play in God's story. Especially here, in this valley, where I live. I am more committed to Christ and Him magnified.
One of the talents God has blessed me with is the ability to worship through song. I am a worship leader (or lead worshiper as I like to think) and have been, on and off, for 11 years. 14 years of my life have been spent on a worship team of some kind in various ways. Through that time, I have learned much about myself and how I receive and show God's love to those on my team, and to the other worshipers in the room. I know how important a worship set can be for a visitor to our church or even to a long time member who is learning not to just go through the motions every week.
That said, I don't often "practice what I preach" and I can sometimes be left wanting for a more polished service or have even led worship sets where I have not really worshiped God. My preparation for the week may be the best I can do or I may have been lazy and not prepared a single song or practice until Saturday night and Sunday morning; yet God still gets the glory and He seems to work most out of my inadequacy. Most people can't tell when I'm unprepared, but a handful of us know and I find myself giving in more deeply to God's leading on those weeks.
There is often a weight I feel when selecting the songs we will sing because I know from others and my personal experience that the words we sing on Sunday can carry throughout our week, year, and even lifetime. I have had a few friends comment on the songs we sing and how they impact their week and become "stuck" in their head. Part of me wants to take credit for the "good job" we did, playing the music well and choosing songs that reflect God's grace and truth - but it can only be God who impacts His people in such a way! He is teaching me that I am His instrument, used to show others His love.
I am so moved by worship music; which is why I assume others will be too. Some people are drawn closer to God in many other ways. But for me, if I'm out of sorts and need to be pulled back; I grab my guitar or even a put on a favorite album and turn it up. It is then, the words speak to my heart and help get my mind back on track.
One song has spoken to my heart in a deep way lately. So much, that I sang it in church today for others to be introduced to it's powerful message. Our church, Ogden Valley Community Church, may be small compared to others but we have a community that loves God and loves each other more every day. (1 Jn 4:11) I am blessed to belong to such a group. I have been thinking a lot about suffering the past few months. Not that I personally have endured a "crisis" (as some call it) within the past year but so many around me are dealing with some very difficult issues. I know our little church is going through a lot together and I pray we are doing it well and for God's glory.
I'll not list the many afflictions we are experiencing but everyone goes through suffering. Our afflictions are not meaningless. The Bible has many passages explaining why we should rejoice in suffering and not be surprised that we endure it. (Rom. 5:3-5, 2 Cor. 4:16-18, Job 13:15,) It is difficult for me to explain so I'll let Shane & Shane and John Piper do it for me. They are a few of my favorite Christian artists/authors/influences. The link below is titled: "A Song for the Suffering" and the music video is, "Though You Slay Me - featuring John Piper"
"Though You Slay Me" Shane & Shane with excerpt from John Piper (transcript found here, also embedded below)
I pray you will be encouraged to walk in faith and hope when suffering comes. You may be in the midst now or it may be past or more will come in the future and I know it is easier said than done. This world is fallen but Christ is all we need, He is enough for me.
I am so moved by worship music; which is why I assume others will be too. Some people are drawn closer to God in many other ways. But for me, if I'm out of sorts and need to be pulled back; I grab my guitar or even a put on a favorite album and turn it up. It is then, the words speak to my heart and help get my mind back on track.
One song has spoken to my heart in a deep way lately. So much, that I sang it in church today for others to be introduced to it's powerful message. Our church, Ogden Valley Community Church, may be small compared to others but we have a community that loves God and loves each other more every day. (1 Jn 4:11) I am blessed to belong to such a group. I have been thinking a lot about suffering the past few months. Not that I personally have endured a "crisis" (as some call it) within the past year but so many around me are dealing with some very difficult issues. I know our little church is going through a lot together and I pray we are doing it well and for God's glory.
I'll not list the many afflictions we are experiencing but everyone goes through suffering. Our afflictions are not meaningless. The Bible has many passages explaining why we should rejoice in suffering and not be surprised that we endure it. (Rom. 5:3-5, 2 Cor. 4:16-18, Job 13:15,) It is difficult for me to explain so I'll let Shane & Shane and John Piper do it for me. They are a few of my favorite Christian artists/authors/influences. The link below is titled: "A Song for the Suffering" and the music video is, "Though You Slay Me - featuring John Piper"
"Though You Slay Me" Shane & Shane with excerpt from John Piper (transcript found here, also embedded below)
I pray you will be encouraged to walk in faith and hope when suffering comes. You may be in the midst now or it may be past or more will come in the future and I know it is easier said than done. This world is fallen but Christ is all we need, He is enough for me.
Suffering Servant
I just finished reading the book of Isaiah for our year through the Bible with the "Bible eater" plan. I know there are a lot of Psalms that have been turned into praise and worship songs but through reading Isaiah, I noticed many verses that immediately brought more songs to my mind.
One of my favorite albums as of late is The Water & The Blood by Dustin Kensrue. He wrote a song based on Isaiah 53. It is so powerful. I included a YouTube video so you could hear the beauty of the song. So, check it out.
One of my favorite albums as of late is The Water & The Blood by Dustin Kensrue. He wrote a song based on Isaiah 53. It is so powerful. I included a YouTube video so you could hear the beauty of the song. So, check it out.
His appearance was so badly marred
He could not have been recognized
So disfigured, so beyond all human likeness
That we hid our eyes
Though he carried all our griefs and bore our sorrows
We esteemed him not
But despised him and considered him afflicted
And as one reviled by God
Though all of us have gone astray
Though all have turned to their own ways
The Lord has laid our wickedness on him
His punishment has brought us peace
And crushed for our iniquities
He died to save his people from their sin
He was stricken, and though pierced for our transgressions
He did not lash out
But was silent, like a lamb led to the slaughter
So he opened not his mouth
The might of Yahweh stands revealed
And by his wounds we all are healed
He offered up his soul to death
He poured it out till none was left
He died but now shall rise and surely see
The many he has righteous made
And satisfied, his work surveyed
This man of sorrows evermore shall be
On high, exalted, lifted up
The righteous servant raised above
His mighty hand shall work the will of God
The nations all shall hear and see
Astonished at his victory
The kings of men shall shut their mouths in awe
If She Hadn't Told Me
Another kindergarten post is about to happen but bear with me because this is a new thing happening in our lives so obviously, it takes up a lot of my thoughts and time.
I've noticed, since she began school, there are things I just won't know unless someone tells me. I'm of the type that is controlling and likes to know everything my children do or experience at all times. While my faith and trust in God is stronger now than possibly any other time in my life; there are still thoughts that creep their way into my mind and make me question things and sometimes fear follows closely behind. With that in mind, I'm thinking on Colossians 3:15 "And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful." I need to surrender to Christ and let his peace, not my fear, rule in my heart. I'm thankful we live in a wonderful area where we can send our girl to a great public school.
Because I stay home with the kids, I have been near them and have known what is happening most of their life. Even if they go to a grandparent's home or with friends, I usually get a "report" of sorts when I pick them up. Now I know, even then, I don't get the whole story but they are with people I love and trust. It's different at school, I trust her teacher and I know she is well cared for, but there are 21 kids in her class too and I'm getting most of my information from the perspective of my 5 year old. So with that in mind, here is a list of recent things she has told me. Some funny and some I'm glad to have found out.
Things I may not have known, if she hadn't told me...
1. J: "Oh, we had to move seats on the bus today." Me: "Why?" J: "I don't know, I think we were being too rowdy." - She and her neighbor-friend were playing too loudly with their backpacks.
2. J: "I got hurt two times today on the playground." She is just fine but this is what prompted me to write this post.
3. J: "I'm not supposed to whistle anymore at school, only on the playground." Apparently her teacher must have asked her to only use her new found whistling skills outside. :)
4. J: "I got a treat today at school!" Me: "Why?" J: "I went to another classroom with some other kids from class and we took a test. Because I was good, I got a tootsie roll at the end." She had gone to the reading specialist's room for the beginning of year test.
5. J: "We get to go to the library again tomorrow!" I didn't even know she went last week! But I did receive an email update from her teacher this week detailing what their weekly schedule is like.
6. J: "I am supposed to wear colors like the flag tomorrow, you know, red white and blue - but I'm not sure why?" I had to think about this one for a minute but now I realize that tomorrow is 9/11 so maybe they are doing a tribute/memorial of some kind. I also had to explain to her today what 9/11 is and why we should take time to remember every year. I wasn't quite ready for that talk but it went well.
I'm sure there will be many more instances, like this, throughout the school year but I'm glad her teacher is very open to communication and I can always email or call to find out more info if I need it.
God has shown me many things about myself and how I should change throughout every stage of my children's lives. This next stage is probably related to control issues and letting go of my will so I can wait and trust God to work things for His will. There are good things happening for my little girl and our family. I need to be open to seeing what they are and stepping out in faith and thankfulness to God.
I've noticed, since she began school, there are things I just won't know unless someone tells me. I'm of the type that is controlling and likes to know everything my children do or experience at all times. While my faith and trust in God is stronger now than possibly any other time in my life; there are still thoughts that creep their way into my mind and make me question things and sometimes fear follows closely behind. With that in mind, I'm thinking on Colossians 3:15 "And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful." I need to surrender to Christ and let his peace, not my fear, rule in my heart. I'm thankful we live in a wonderful area where we can send our girl to a great public school.
Because I stay home with the kids, I have been near them and have known what is happening most of their life. Even if they go to a grandparent's home or with friends, I usually get a "report" of sorts when I pick them up. Now I know, even then, I don't get the whole story but they are with people I love and trust. It's different at school, I trust her teacher and I know she is well cared for, but there are 21 kids in her class too and I'm getting most of my information from the perspective of my 5 year old. So with that in mind, here is a list of recent things she has told me. Some funny and some I'm glad to have found out.
Things I may not have known, if she hadn't told me...
1. J: "Oh, we had to move seats on the bus today." Me: "Why?" J: "I don't know, I think we were being too rowdy." - She and her neighbor-friend were playing too loudly with their backpacks.
2. J: "I got hurt two times today on the playground." She is just fine but this is what prompted me to write this post.
3. J: "I'm not supposed to whistle anymore at school, only on the playground." Apparently her teacher must have asked her to only use her new found whistling skills outside. :)
4. J: "I got a treat today at school!" Me: "Why?" J: "I went to another classroom with some other kids from class and we took a test. Because I was good, I got a tootsie roll at the end." She had gone to the reading specialist's room for the beginning of year test.
5. J: "We get to go to the library again tomorrow!" I didn't even know she went last week! But I did receive an email update from her teacher this week detailing what their weekly schedule is like.
6. J: "I am supposed to wear colors like the flag tomorrow, you know, red white and blue - but I'm not sure why?" I had to think about this one for a minute but now I realize that tomorrow is 9/11 so maybe they are doing a tribute/memorial of some kind. I also had to explain to her today what 9/11 is and why we should take time to remember every year. I wasn't quite ready for that talk but it went well.
I'm sure there will be many more instances, like this, throughout the school year but I'm glad her teacher is very open to communication and I can always email or call to find out more info if I need it.
God has shown me many things about myself and how I should change throughout every stage of my children's lives. This next stage is probably related to control issues and letting go of my will so I can wait and trust God to work things for His will. There are good things happening for my little girl and our family. I need to be open to seeing what they are and stepping out in faith and thankfulness to God.
Kindergarten
We've made it through the first "week" of kindergarten! My sweet girl is loving her time there. I, as the Momma, am adjusting to the new change better than anticipated. I continue to over-analyze most things but I'm learning, more than ever this year, to trust in God all the time. I am so pleased with her school and teacher. She came home today and I asked her how it went. She said, "Kindergarten is amazing!"
We have embarked on a new phase in life and I pray that I will be more in-tune to God's leading in my life and how to raise my children well - to love and glorify Christ.
2014 I have been trying to reflect on Colossians 3 specifically verses 12-17. This section is my prayer for our family as we become more involved in the surrounding community and grow closer to other believers in Christ.
Colossians 3: 15-17 " And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him."
I am so thankful to God for all He is showing me in my life and I will strive to make Him known where ever I am.
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